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Amy Tostenson's avatar

My armor owned me most of my life. I was stuck in survival mode. I have been safe for many years but my nervous system didn't know it was okay to feel so. You described in l me in what I call my old life to a tee.

Most of my childhood was traumatic with witnessing my mother's abuse first, then hands on me later. Abuse of ALL forms.

I was not just one of these examples, I was all of them.

I will be publishing my first book, a hybrid soon. It's part memoir and part tools, tips, self awareness, self help.

John R. Miles's avatar

Amy, thank you so much for sharing a piece of your story with me. What you described—being physically safe for years while your nervous system is still fighting the old war—is the very heart of the survival identity. It is exhausting to live that way, and I am so glad this episode resonated with the life you’ve worked so hard to rebuild.

To move from experiencing all forms of abuse to writing a book that offers tools, tips, and self-awareness for others is the ultimate definition of turning armor into authentic strength. You are living proof of what it means to move from survival to participation.

Huge congratulations on your upcoming book—the world needs more voices who have actually done the engine work. Please keep me posted on the launch!

Amy Tostenson's avatar

Thank you John. I'm starting presales soon. I'm trying to decide which non profit I want some of the proceeds to go to. I'm thinking an organization that focuses on helping survivers of sexual assault and human trafficking

John R. Miles's avatar

That is a great cause. I wonder if Tim Tebow's organization donates to multiple ones. https://timtebowfoundation.org/ministries/anti-human-trafficking-1

Jack Miles's avatar

Never looked at a moment as self avoidance just adapted to a situation and created a solution. Did i let my Armor define my response , perhaps, but it led to creative thinkig / actions. perhspd letting my armor down translates to positive results.